So many things

So many things to still write about - I have a few posts on the back burner that keep getting pushed aside. It's so odd .... I feel like I have to get everything posted in the month of November, when I am sure all my family are hoping I blog almost as regularly throughout the coming months.

Not that this blog has a focus or a point ... I just feel like getting some thoughts down.

I guess I have been thinking about Kara's parent-teacher thing. Trust Ellen and Marya to always put things into perspective for me (I miss your tell-it-how-it-is approach so much!!). It's so easy to always point fingers at yourself when you perceive negative comments are being made. And of course this "assessment" was affirmation for both Lance and I that the other was doing something "wrong" ... so lots of discussion have ensued. (And to be honest, I hate how these situations automatically draw this out in us no matter how much we try to realize this and avoid it - we should be supportive of each other and our individual beliefs rather than always thinking there are reasons and instigators).

I love the time I spend with Kara, I always have. Whether it's our morning or night-time routine, the pretend games we always play, spending time tidying up the garden, or whatever the occassion or reason or excuse. I guess I do spend a lot of time with her (and of course with Sophie now as they are usually inseparable - so cute!). But I spent (almost) as much time with Sophie as I ever did with Kara, and Sophie seems independent and perserveres at stuff. So part of me really wants to believe that hey, that's just who Kara is. And who doesn't want their kid to be totally loving and caring and sharing with others??? And because it suits me, I tend to believe that the loving, caring environment I have shown Kara must have contributed to this trait in her in some small way.

And Kara says "please" and "thankyou/your welcome" ALL the time - that's me!

If I think about it, I wasn't all that independent when I was young (my mother may think differently). I was always watching others to see what they did first, how they spoke, how they dressed ... and tried to fit in the best I could. And I would say I'm fairly independent now (just ask my mother now, ha!!). AND MY GOD, Kara is only 3 and this should not be taking up so much of my thoughts. (Plus, she is quite independent with her clothes choices most days - yikes, I think she must be color blind!).

OK, I'll admit that I probably do help Kara put her socks on more than I should, zip up her jackets, and walk her to the potty at times ... all things I know she can capably do on her own. And although I do actually let her do a lot of things on her own ( I really do!), I will make an extra effort to let her do most things by herself first.

The perserverance - well, I might try that too. We do tend to play a lot of games rather than "work" on things (but again folks, she is just 3). She perserveres with yard work at least!! That must count for something! OK, OK ... I'll try to make her finish the puzzles next time.

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And you know what else I have wanted to say this whole month? I AM TIRED! (No, nothing to concern yourself about mum). I just work long days, do most of the pick up and drop offs at 2 different locations, make lunches/snacks for the next day, maybe work another 1-2 hours (3-4 hours at times when it gets really bad), stare at the laundry, then often lay in bed wondering why I'm not one of those people (like Lance) who can fall asleep the minute their head hits the pillow. So yes, I may tend to make my days/nights slightly smoother at times and help the girls get moving - but surely my sanity is necessary for their welfare longterm! (For the record, Lance also works long days all over the place, so I pick up/drop off due to logistical reasons, and he washes all the dishes every day as we don't have a dishwasher and wont until we re-do the whole plumbing - so this wasn't a complaint about all the things "I" had to do).

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Back to the girls and their antics tomorrow, I promise. And I already have a cute and EASY blog lined up for tomorrow!!